It was the perfect day for an afternoon walk… and, please, don’t ask me what day: we have already been through that and it is clear that I have no idea on what day I did what and that is the reason I can never, never figure out WHICH day was the one I actually LOST. Anyway, I do remember important things, such as the condition of the afternoon, Continue reading
Month: October 2010
THE SMALL THINGS IN LIFE
There are moments when the heart stops and the Universe takes over. Virginia Woolf called them “moments of being” and dedicated one of her autobiographical books to the matter. Time and space disappear and there is nothing but wonder, awe and, yes, love. Continue reading
EATING OUT IN SALIES (summer)
It is the most beautiful summer’s day I have seen yet in Salies. The sun shines and lightly burns the skin, the sky is an almost painful blue without a cloud in sight and a light fresh breeze blows; there is no humidity. I take to the Jardin Public late, after chatting as is becoming the custom with the internet love of my life, Doug. It is eleven o’clock before I even take poor Salomé out for the morning duties. The quiet of the day, its perfectness hits me the moment I set foot in the street. Continue reading
MURPHY DAY (2009, Sept.)
It is definitely a Murphy day. I awoke at 7am worried about the report I had picked up the previous afternoon only to find that my thyroid hormone TSH (better known to me as That Shitty Hormone) had shot way out of proportion to the norm and couldn’t go back to sleep again. Continue reading
MIST
Today a mist has floated down to sit in the streets and parks of Salies, and the hush that always accompanies mist cloaks the town. I love the humidity, the air that turns liquid on touching the cheeks, the cool wetness of it, but specially the hush. Continue reading
INNOCENCE
When I moved to Madrid in the year 2001, I found the city so open, friendly and well organized as far as public transport was concerned that I decided to live a year without a car. My then husband had a car, so for going out of the city I was set. Everything else I did by taxi, bus, metro or walking. Continue reading
WE FORGET IT’S A MOVIE
In a more useful sense,
trances are unquestioned
thought systems or behavior
patterns. In a trance state,
we are so absorbed in the “movie”
that we forget it’s a movie.
And, we forget we are not just
the actor, but also the director
and the audience.
(Swami Beyondananda)
There are several kinds of drunk. Not always, but sometimes I was the aggressive kind: I got drunk to punish you, you being whoever had wronged me at that moment, and believe me, as far as I was concerned the “you’s” were standing in line. Continue reading
MEN ON MY MIND… (2009)
“Lately you have men on your mind….” That’s how my brother’s letter started out. I read the sentence several times and then asked myself: “Is that true?” I could answer yes or no. Am I thinking about men more than before? Before when? If I say 5 years ago, the answer is “yes”. If I say 17 years ago, the answer is “no”, definitely not: at that time I was just divorced and one of the top –if not the top-top- items on my mind’s list was A MAN, any man from the creeps to the crawlies. Continue reading
GUILT
It seems like the day I recently lost was not the only thing that Salies caused me to overlook and even though that misplacement caused quite a bit of mental confusion, there was no guilt involved. Guilt is another thing, something to be avoided at all costs, something insidious that creeps into the stomach and liver making life quite miserable as long as it lasts. Continue reading
THE LOST DAY
I have misplaced a day. I don’t know where I put it or what I did with it: it’s gone. I’ve lost it. And what is worst: I don’t even know what day it was that got lost. Continue reading
Writing a life 